Ayunithebest.......



im actually searching for my old blog skin when i realised i have NONE. bloody hell and then had to search like hell in my hotmail until i cut and paste this layout. OMG, this is my blog like in the year 2006. i was laughing like hell when i saw my face arh. then got I HEARTS army guys ting beside there. ayunie, what were you thinking seh. somemore got forum. hahaha, SO FUNNY. and then i read all the old post. okays, i mean some posts. HAHA, i am still laughing at it. i dont care anymore. i am an individual with my own stand. i know sometimes i keep quiet about things but because i no longer want to fight.

i shall find a new blogskin soon.

and before that, have you heard about alicia keys- if i aint got you.

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

so old school seh.



Ayunithebest.......

there was nothing more upsetting than being threatened and feeling vunerable in the world. i got to admit iqbal has prove something to me that i was fragile. i bet he is jumping up and down in his own couch. firdaus has always been right. i was an emotional girl but then, i was not someone who will not stand up for myself. i have proven myself right and saw the very ones who would stand up for me when i was attacked.

seriously. i have compiled.

Amboi. Lancang sungguh mulu kau cakap kawan aku macam gitu. excuse me. look at urself first before praying for God to forgive her sins. Mulut kau tu yang patut kau jaga pasal FITNAH tu dosa lebih besar. Stop bothering my fren idiot.hey idiot. get out of here la. you are just intruding her life. Kumbang bukan seekor la eh. Lelaki bukan satu. Dont you ever mention about being Muslim or whatever. ISLAM is patience and peace. So get out of here. You dont like here, then get out of her sight and life. AND dont you ever mention about muslim or islam. coz if you are gonna debate about the rights and tata tusila org islam, u better get the book and read it now. Now coming here in ppl's blog. Scold sane sini and fitnah. remember! Fitnah is dosa besar. lebih besar dari Zina. Nauzubillah.so get ur life and leave my fren alone.

-nadeera.

hey there IQBALISH....BTW,DO U NOE Y ur spelt with an extra ISH???BECOS I CAN SENSE THAT U ARE JUST SOOOOO DEVILISH...I MEAN evil...EVIL enuff to mALIGN this poor cousin of mine.....u better keep in check ur own retribution alrite.She will find someone better.i tink ur just PLAIN JEALOUS..WATCH UR BACK GOONDOO! and ya....just to keep you in check...fitnah adalah antara dosa2 besar tau iqbalish....fyi,ayunie is the most gentle,softspoken person i known...she will and never hurt anyone...and becos of this shes always prone to be be malign by pips like u.u better taubat k.AMIN.

-mimie.

i cant wait to see hu this person is ayun! drama kalah tv suria. ain nak bawak popcorn on 14 feb & btw, i will support you even tho u are bad :kiss:

-ain.

ayunie..ignore that idiot..kids like these kid down here are just plain childish..haters are just jealous of u since they cant get what they want.seriously..why cant monsters like them stop bothering people?or is it they are too free?hmmm..i wonder.and for that iqbal or whatever and whoever u are,stop bothering ayunie u pest.though i dont really know her too well,i can see that she is a very nice gurl.unlike u.dont hide behind your words u creepy creature! and ayunie..mas support u always okie?and just ignore the monster.. *hugs*

-mastura.

every sane person wld b able to tell the diff bt good and bad.and the bad ones are always the ones starting the fire.we all noe who start it first.and we all noe who is innocent.rmbr iqbal,one finger pointing out,three fingers pointing back.

-cupcake.

dear ayunie,im a fan of your blog and although i don't know you,i just want to tell you that most pple who sound agressive virtually are actually physical cowards who would shrink in physical reaity.this is considered cyberbullying and its punishable by our law.so take stronger actions ayunie.

-Mrs S

i am speechless. when i got home from my east coast cycling and singing with felicia yesterday, i thought about how i wanted my life to be and when i saw the messages this morning, i was realli laughing to myself. never in my life, i see nadeera so angry like that. WAH. sahabat setia arh and mastura who usually is a soft spoken girl tries to stand up for me. im touched really. im touched by the very fact that i know i have people who would be there for me =) GOD has proven me tt i am bound to meet true friends in the world =)

i will always see the beauty in good people.

and iqbal, i hope you are very happy now. very happy because you did achieve your goal. but you will never achieve in breaking my friend's perception of me. never, because iqbal, you are just as usual, pathetic =)

and just for you, i will do just something.

i will cycle to pulau ubin ALONE today. i prove to you something.

i am more braver than what you think i am.

okays. all packed and UBIN, here i go.

Ayunithebest.......

EDITED.

*this contains NO cookies and creams. just fuck and sickening things*

if you plan to judge me because of this, you are just another addition to the unbased world we live in. i can no longer sit back and do nothing because i realised i am ayunie. i have the right. the last time i was so mad was in secondary school. shouted for hema's sister because she was bullied. now is the other time i shall use that word.

the iqbal diaries.

you know why u feeling like this cause you guilty. ask yourself why you feeling guilty.you have the answer ayuni.stop pretending & act blur.you make someone sad & this what you get.
10 November 2008, 15:52 [GMT]

you know by entering his life will change everything and i did told u before, if you make someone sad or disturb people happiness, you yourseld will not be happy.Don't talk about God here cause you yourself a liar and hypocrite.You tell ms gorgeous that i'm a pyscho until she scold my mum and family.Now everything over and she has somebody else whereas you?you tried very hard to make him hate her. Don't think i donno. You ever tell me you will try your very best to get his best and will not let any gerls get him.You forgot your words isit or pretend to forgot. See!you destroy other people happiness and you get this. Serve you right for not getting him back. This is God's will. You make him hate her and he himself reject you. till thn ayuni. bye
11 November 2008, 15:07 [GMT]

no wonder you look ugly cause you'r evil
25 November 2008, 05:58 [GMT]

and to add to the iqbal diaries.

wanna know why you feeling like this. cause this is retribution. u poor thing. after all you have done you still did not get him.after getting rid of her also you can't get him. bad person person like you won't get anything good. trust me.may god forgive all your sins
9 February 2009, 11:56 [GMT]

and to add again.

You want to exposed me on Valentine Day?Oh please you are a muslim and muslim don't even have V Day for goodness sake. It just a normal day to all muslim. You can tell all your friends that you are innocent while i'm the bad one. I don't mind. Cause only you know yourself well. FYI ayunie, I still have the msn you told me that you would get rid of all the girls who try to get close to your ex. Yes, she scold my mum ‘Fuck your mum la Iqbal’ This is what she said after your meet up with her. Only God knows what you ‘ve told her.
10 February 2009

of all days you want to do this, you want to do on my brother's birthday.since you want to play this childish game, i will play it too. you think i dont know how to scold. i have always been so patient with you and your freaking comments. you pretend to be an angel when all you are is just a fucking imposter. i will blast it now because i am a bad bad girl like you said so. since im a bad girl and the world is dying, i shall collect more sins and then ask for forgiveness on hari raya. no wait. i will BURN with you in hell. im sorry dear GOD because i have no choice but to repent after i do this.


since when you decided what is retribution?! you are neither a priest or anything nearby it . you do not need to ask GOD to forgive my sins because you have NO right. you are just pathetic. i dont live by your words of promises. you have always start by using you know this, you know that. what do you know. that i fucking steal firdaus. SINCE WHEN. fuck yourself more better.

and i just notice, you say i told ms gorgeous.

You tell ms gorgeous that i'm a pyscho until she scold my mum and family.

eh how she know ur mom and family arh. you two related is it. please la. retirbution retribution. go and think about something else to say.hogging on people's life and deciding what karma they get. since you have the ability, why not you be a counsellor. i admit i cant get him, go on and laugh but i am freaking pissed of that you said i GOT RID of her. excuse me. i did not get rid of her. did i kill her or did she and firdaus had any relationship in the first place. bloody toot. get your facts right arh. you ask mohammad firdaus abdul kadir if you want. bullshit. i give you his number and you can bloody chat with him.

wah, because of your stupid research of my life, you can anyhow say i am bad. screw you. if i am bad, i would have GOT RID of ALL THE GIRLS firdaus know okays but NO, i didnt. he still talks to girls. you jealous right. you go and tell him that YOURSELF. i have nothing to do with your fucking ideologies. i just keep quiet and listen. you ask him arh. just because you stick to the rules of love, you think you are right. fuck off. you dont know what it is like. i may take 10 mths to move on but i dont take a day to learn how fucking hypocrite are you.

you have no idea what you are getting yourself into because i have long know your existence. dont think i smile and i pretend nothing happen. i firdaus may not say anything or protect me in this but i will protect my freaking right. you dont come around judging people. i KNOW who you are and i can swear on GOD on that because all i need you to do is say another stupid comment and CLICK.

i exposed who you are.

you know what, i give you credits to protect your friend but if you were sensible enough, you wont go around saying unbased comments like no body's business. listen here miss iqbal. you have stepped on my toes and i shant sit around and do nothing. because after today, i shall expose who you are.

GO SHOW THE MSN, i bet you keep all the msn because you wanted to use it on me one day. did i remember saying good things too but you dont even want to show it isnt it. but, i want you to do just that because of all things you want to exposed about me, its just about GETTING rid of all girls. bloody shit.oh wait let me list about what i did .

1) i break up and steal firdaus
2) i steal firdaus and want to get rid of the girls.
3)i steal firdaus and want to get rid of the girls and want to kill them all.

eh why you never ask her what she say arh.which part of you are dumb. go scold her since she say FUCK ur mom because i never say to her to say that to you. ARE YOU IN LOVE WITH HER OR WHAT. GOD knows what i told her because GOD freaking knows whats she was thinking. and you dont come around and bullshit your goodness because you are freaking liar.

i want to see HOW MANY people are going to say AYUNIE IS BAD after this because you have proven yourself right. you are just a person of self taught righteous who should think about destroying others with your foul mouth. im not going to admit defeat.i change that VDAY since iqbal is a good muslim.
i will swear on it. this i promise. on 14 FEB 2009, i will show people who you realli are.

one more thing.

FUCK OFF.

Ayunithebest.......



after writing in to GOD yesterday, i think i feel so much better. at that time, HE apparently send me my angel, dewi to talk to me. wah so choon choon i need her and she called. she was telling me about the letter that she wanted to send to me 8 years ago but never did. that time i was arguing with her and never talk to her for two years. im so good. hahaha. when dewi lost me, she felt the lost. im glad im still talking to her. dont know what we argued about also. i broke down while talking to her. dewi said i had been supressing my feelings. you should hear me, i have never sobbed like that. i think if my dad hear, he would bash him up. hurhur. i knew she was right long time ago but i couldnt let him go. thats what i couldnt do. see, i finally admit my mistake. dewi has always believe in firdaus being the one for me. ever since i told her everything that happen, she still thinks firdaus will be the one. until i told her yesterday that if he was the one, he could have do something about it. it saddens me when everytime i think about the VERY effort i made to make him see something but he doesnt see it.

its saddens me when just because i broke up with him, im feeling guilty about it.

and dewi asked me an important question,

so awak, do you want to move on or not?

i replied with a certain yes. this time, i certainly know that even if i tried so much,it wont make a difference. even if i tried going out with him, calling him first to ask him how it was, doing favours for him or so, it wont make a difference because i will only be a friend. he maybe lost in his own world and i tried being there. it didnt help so it shows a lot. therefore i concluded that my first love will always be a first love only. and then dewi said to me,

awak,maybe there's something good that comes out from this. you wont be having so much bad times already because after this, it will be much better. you have done enough. who knows someone out there who is waiting for you is SO much better or you will have someone like him with lots of chest hair or you will have him back. i dont know but it wont be bad everytime =)

she had to emphasize on the chest hair. HAHAHA. but i feel so much better, really. im not going to lie to myself, he can never be my best friend because ex- couples are never best friends. he will just be a friend then. ah, now i have three besties, dewi. min and feli. HAHAHA. and this firdaus arh. he thinks i dont know he posed that UGLY picture on friendster of me. bloody toot. i think when he does call me, i will personally slaughter him for that. and,

thanks to all who have been following my journey =) when i broke up, i thought it would be a disaster but i managed it. for a soft hearted and fragile girl like me who appear strong, i can never do it without the support of all. and who knows, one day from my blog, a different me will emerged. i know i must change something of me before that special someone comes. thats one thing i know =)

and YA, i want to tell you something.



about siti julaiha.

i was in the car after the wedding with my parents when suddenly my auntie turned to me, and said, " ayunie looks like her. if she was here, she would be her age" i was confused. who the heck is siti julaiha sia. i thought it was someone i dont know since boyan language is so difficult to hear. i asked abah about it.

me: who's siti julaiha. i never seen her before
him: oh, she is your aunt's late daughter.
me: AAAAHHHH. AUNT GOT DAUGHTER.
him: yes, if she was alive, she would be the same age as you. you were born the same year and almost the same time or so.
me: then how she died?
him:she died of high fever. that time when it happened,you were crying so bad.
me: i cried?!
him: because you know she would die. maybe thats why.

i stunned for a while. looked up at the skies and suddenly i thought this siti julaiha maybe looking after me too. i used to gugugaga with her and then i cried when she was about to die. i must have been close to her. aunt must be sad because i reminded her of her lost daughter.

now i think i have psychic powers. GOD bless her soul. and better prepare my studies stuffs. got to meet GARY for my enrolment. BYES!

Ayunithebest.......


dear GOD,

i am ayunie. i stay in singapore. i am writing to you because i want to tell you whats happening in my heart. i am no longer sad but very dissapointed with the people you have always made me believe in. i hope you have a computer up there to read my blog dear GOD. i bet you listen to my prayer everytime because i always say may good things happen to him and bad things happen to me. now its always BAD.




you taught me the meaning of love. when i first talk to iskandar, i didnt know he liked me. then i grew to liked him but he never shown signs of the same to me. i knew i wanted to be there for him so much because his mother passed away when he was young.i wanted to give him love so i stayed by him for those difficult years. i listened to every relationship, still having that thought we could be together. i had loved him all my life until he disappeared. he did the same mistake every single time. he expected me to understand. we lost contact for a whole year. i waited for him to call for that whole year. but he was just my best friend dear god. he didnt see me how i cared for him.

then i met firdaus. firdaus taught me how i was in love. when i msn-ed him, he was quiet. i talked a lot and he was just there to listen. he kept every conversations we had and put it in a folder. he told me at that time, he knew i was special. for once someone liked me. i was happy despite of hw i look, somehow liked me for who i am. we never met for 7 mths dear god, which maybe is part of your plan and i remember how i made him a notebook for him to read so that he would not be lonely in taiwan. and when he came back, we saw each other for the first time. we were in love. it came one time how he scurried to see me after that conversation we had. he asked me to be his girlfriend. i said yes. and then everything was so pretty.


i had a boyfriend whom i love so much. he was the best. he listened to me alot until i felt he started not being there as much. i couldnt understand why. even though he had to take care of his dad and all, its just doesnt feel the same. not like last time and he didnt see it. its weird. what did i do wrong. did loving him too much made it wrong. maybe being the best girlfriend made it wrong. on that day i decided to break up with him,i felt it was right. i knew what i did it for. it wasnt because i love him any lesser. and then came the drama.


you made my life more interesting everytime dear GOD. every single time.


because you tested my love didnt you. you made me see everything about him that seemed bad but i told myself, its okays. i had that hope. of all the million people who called him a jerk, i never supported that. i had never did the same. and at that point of time when i decided to see him, i just didnt know why. maybe you had me send to him again to help him somehow. didnt you?! its weird how you made me do this with the knowledge, i would break my heart again. he had never love me. if he did, he would have fight for me. i should have known.


on top of all the things he forgot in my relationship, how we are supposed to watch PS i love you and he forgot about that. how i never even complain (or maybe i tease) a bit when he started smsing lesser and when he started doing things i never taught he would, i never even got mad as much to hate him.even as friends, if he had cared, he would remembered for the gazillion times to wish me happy __ mths because it makes me happy he remembers. it makes me happy, dont you understand.


firdaus is the nicest guy on earth. he helps his friends first foremost. he cares about his family a lot and he is a good listener. he is a good person but when it comes to me, he seem so jet lag. its so weird, the one i always tell my stories too has suddenly turned to a moment of silence.


dear god,


if you have cared to explain to me why u made me so patient and understanding,


please explain to me. because the more patient and understanding i am, the more unhappy i become. i have never lost hope in something i do and when i did, everything is dash. please tell me why you have made my destiny this way. i told you so, i told you so.i told you i cant have any guys because of this reason. because you always made me work hard and in the end, you made me work somemore. i never blame you dear god. i know u made me stronger in a way. you let me see what kind of people are they in the world and how i managed to go through things.



most importantly,

you taught me how to love unconditionally. without grudges. because after this dear GOD, please give me the strength to go through life knowing it would be hard for me because his love for me is no longer there. so give me the strength like you always do. protect me from harm and show me the way. i dont want to do things im not happy with. i dont want to know guys just because im lonely. stop sending guys to tagged me and buy me for pets! i dont want. i dont want to be the laughing stock of people like they laugh at me, I told you so.



pls find me someone like abah.

and pls, dont try and make it rain everyday because it hurts me if it rains.

im such a jinx sometimes.

Ayunithebest.......



i have a way with children. eugenia's son, derrick, calls me GABRIELLA from high school musical.

im flattered baby. i am.

im glad the week is soon to be over because i deserved that three days leave i apply for no reason. i have been sick the whole week and its funny how i managed my work because i did two overtimes in a week. boy, am i a survivor or what but i have to thank abah and ace for picking me up. it was a horrible thursday and i decided to stay back and do my reports. i really couldnt move so i called dad to pick me up and he did, surprisingly =) the following day, i called ace to pick me up since i had overtime to do and i didnt want to be too tired for saturday. it ws scary as i thought he would laugh at my hair but he didnt. he thought i looked nice & my perfume smells better. it mks a difference to me! anyways, ace was nagging and nagging abt me doin overtimes. i ws like how come you can and i cant. the reason being was because he had transport & i dont. of course i clearly dont. i failed my FTT. i gave him a flinch and smiled. i have to earn money. at the rate im going, its not going to be easy.



being a nurse is pathetic. opps, my pay is pathetic. i dont have a lot to pay for sure but i have alot to set aside. i go out a lot. i borrow people money alot and dont get them return. to think i dont even bother to ask them for money back. i am trying to apply for further studies soon. i still have my FTT to take and i am struggling to prove to my colleagues i can be a good supervisor. life is a bit challenging. it keeps me more active. i find myself going home more often. no much of going to esplanade like i used to. i have changed. somesort.anyways,wen i did saw ace yesterday, i felt a bit better about my life. at least someone bothers to nag and to listen to me. he still does tell me about his new beaus he likes but i kind of get used to it. of course la i feel jealous or so but what am i supposed to do. you should see me. i know how to act tough. HAHA. i kind of miss the old him, how things have flown. tomorrow would be our three years of friendship. time has tell me tt i am destined to be best friends with all the GUYS i like. i knew it. it happened to iskandar and then, to firdaus. i dont know who is next. i shant think about love just yet.



work has been really fine. i received my first BIG compliment yesterday. it was at FMC =) i gave diclofenac jab to this patient and she felt super giddy. guess why? because she never eat. i dont know why people dont eat nowadays. i bought her some kaya bread and put in one of the rooms for her to rest and she kept me busy for the whole half an hour. lucky jenelou never scold me. it was time for her to go and she told me,

i feel touched. no one has ever did this before. not in my life. i have to get your name and tell your boss. who is your boss. please tell me.

OMG. i scared arh. who knows she will backstab me. so i cover my nametag, HAHAHA. i told her,

i am a nurse. its my job to see you get well. its no trouble for me. whats troubling me is that you are stubborn to not wear your armsling. you are stubborn arent you.

i have my words as a nurse. thats what i say to every patient. a nurse is a nurse first foremost. i am more comfortable when i am in FMC than i am in REMC because i am more myself. REMC teaches me to be more responsible but FMC makes me feel more at home. the irony. im still going to survive at my workplace. btw, she got my name =) HAHA.



oh yes. i served the PRIME MINISTER's.... PERSONAL SECRETARY today =) happy or what. i was super scared but i managed to do it. went home straight away and have been watching tv from 3pm to 12 am thanks to MIO TV. now my eyes going blind. better go rest. tomorrow got wedding somemore and then my LEAVE! guess what i am going to do?!

cycling. movie. sunset. bla bla bla all by myself =)

HAVE A HAPPY SUNDAY!

Ayunithebest.......

i am awake again. its 315 hours in the morning and i am awake. i was running a fever the whole day and i was kind of quiet the whole day. been sneezing a lot. stupid flu. managed to do my overtime today too with mr nurse. you should have seen him. he was super clumsy. want to fall here and there and i did helped him today =) i dont know what he is up to sometimes. i nearly wanted to ask, " why didnt you tell me you had a girlfriend" but i relented. better keep my mouth shut. HAHA. but the best thing was when i told my colleague i wasnt feeling well, they actually didnt let me work but i insist that i could.jessica was nice enough to cover me but i told her to go home. besides at that time, i felt better. it just got worse when dad picked me up and my fever started to start again. i hate eating panadols. anything but medicines. mom had to force it on me before i sleep. i just hope i would feel better in the morning.

what happened the past few days?

i ate at HYATT hotel. omg. nice nice nice. i went with felicia, who else. and also.

i argued with ace.its so funny because i was SO mad at him. mad until i shouted at home. HAHA. it all started when he was nice enough to call and when i said HELLO?, he had a call and said he would call back. okays, i was happy he bothered to call . i initially thought it was something important so i waited and waited. NEVER CALL. pissed off of course. he had the WHOLE day free to call while he was at home. i went msn and he was ONLINE! never nudge me somemore. alamak, this boy. NO MANNERS. haha. i was super mad that i complained to felicia. bla bla bla.

then i heed her advice and called him. you know what he was doing?! PLAYING PSP AND WATCHING HBO at 12AM. i swear i can smash his TV that moment but i keep quiet. wah this one i cannot tahan but must act cool. you make me wait for SIX HOURS and still make me wait while you FORGOT to call me. he knew something was wrong but i didnt want to tell so for 10 mins, i said " NOTHING NOTHING" until i irritated him.

HAHAHAHA. orbi quek. until i finally say,

YOU MAKE ME MAD!

him: why? what did i do?
me: what did you DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU ALWAYS DO THIS!!!!!!
him: WHAT!!!!! *squels*
me: you called and you say you would call back. if you say that, PLS do what u say. you always make people wait. wait wait until 12 am somemore. then can be on MSN and not nudge and can still chat with other people. SO GOOD ARH. i thought what thing important right but you arh.
him: ah? you angry because of that?!

then he blabbered on about he wasnt infront of the computer. ask me to sms his friend to clarify somemore. think i so free. you should hear me. i was like YA RITE YA RITE on top of my voice. and then comes the MAD point,

him:i still dont get what are u angry about.
me: DONT GET! * then i explained part one again and again*
him: okays, im sorry i didnt call but i was going to. i never even reply to my friend msg. you can sms her if you dont believe.
me: i dont want to! she is she. i am i. are you saying im silly to be angry about this.
him: ya =)
me: YA!!!! why am i silly. you are the one who NEVER CALL for a WEEK so when you call i am happy and i like TALKING TO YOU.
him: but you are the one who always want to WAIT for me to call but you never CALL. now being calculative. who was the one who never reply to my sms?
me: WHAT SMS! it was only an sms saying thank you. you expect me to reply WELCOME! is it and then, you NEVER reply to my GD NITE WISH and mine is LONGER!
him: oh now want to play like that.

i want to LAUGH.its like children fighting. seriously. who gets the candy first but.

OMG. CAN SOMEMORE SAY YA! then he laughed at me because i put " PISSED OFF. BLOODY HELL" which was referring to him. he laughed when he was supposed to be apologetic. silly boy, it made me more mad of course. i didnt know what i was angry about but i think it was because he had the time to do something else but not the time to talk to me when he said he was going too. ahhh. that must be it. i calmed down later on and punished him by blabbering non stop. HAHAHAHAHA. so funny because he said, ayunie, can i sleep. and then i was like, NO. hahahahaha. so bad arh. then i tricked him somemore.

ace has a bad memory nowadays and he said he would call me if he wants to go out with me but he wouldnt because he always doesnt think about it so i make it a point to trick him that day.

me: i hope you dont forget to meet me on wednesday.
him: AH? wednesday. i did make a date?
me: YA! HOW COULD U FORGET! u say urself *actually he never*
him: swear?!
me: YA, SWEAR! " cross finger"
him: how come i dont remember?! how you know its my OFF DAY!
me: you always dont remember things. you told me! you better not forget this.
him: wed shouldnt be a problem =)

HAHAHAHAHA. so clever. to get something, you must lie a bit. HAHAHA. but i told him the truth today of course =) and he never scold me. YAYS! so cant wait to go out with ace.wait till he hears where i want to go. hehehe. i miss him! and guess what! im taking leave next week to do absolutely NOTHING. finally. my days off =)

oh wells, better go to sleep now. GET WELL SOON AYUNIE!